Reflections

Today only confirmed that little Caylee Anthony is in Heaven. You may remember my post about it but it's been all over the news for months.

This beautiful, innocent little girl will be laid to rest. I am just so thankful they found her. It just kinda hits home and makes you feel so connected especially when you have children not to mention a child her same age and full of spunk just as the videos showed of Caylee.

This little girl didn't want to be famous; she didn't ask for any of this...God rest her soul.

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I am taking next week off to be with my kids and my hubby for the first time. I normally always have to work and due to my line of work it's all about end of year closings...but this year I am taking off and I am going to relish in every minute I have with my family. Baking cookies, listening to Christmas music, wrapping presents and just being in this moment with them. My hubby has decided to work from home so we can all be together.

Things are really tight for us this year and who knows if I will have a job next month. I am just thankful that I was able to get my kids shopping done. My hubby and I are not exchanging gifts; this will be the first time in my entire life that I won't be opening a present on Christmas morning but you know what; I have the best gift of all...a husband who puts up with me and loves me for all my flaws and truly loves me...deep down love, kids who see past my faults as a mother and love me more for it. (I am no Suzy homemaker...but I can keep a clean house with the help of my hubby and kids)

I wish you, my friends this Holiday season Love, Laughter and togetherness with your family and friends. I wish you all a healthy and prosperous New Year. Let's all just slow down over the next week and remember what is truly important this time of year...not to mention year round.

The Partridge in a Pear Tree Was Jesus Christ.

My blogger buddy over at The Pink Potpourri had an amazing and enlightening post today about the 12 Days of Christmas. You have to go visit her if she isn't one of your daily stops; I definately learned something new today.

So I am a firm believer of signs. I read her post today and also read it to my hubby who is Catholic and he didn't know the meaning of the 12 Days of Christmas song and how it came about.

We are struggling financially now due to our economy as both he and I work smack dab in the middle of the 2 hard hit sectors right now...the financial and housing industries.

So I was outside today and I heard a noise; I looked around and I saw a bird in a berry tree. Ok so it wasn't a Patridge (it could have been but I am no bird conneseaur but it was just a bird) nor a Pear tree but it was a sign that I am being watched over and everything is going to be fine...just have faith!

Scared...Why?

We can't control what happens in life; we can only react and learn from what happens. We ask ourselves what if? What if I waited the additional 10 minutes before I left? What if I didn't leave the office at all? These thoughts run through my head but in the end only God knows.

I truly believe in all my being that God has a plan for all of us. The joys we experience, the pain we overcome teaches us something in the end. I believe that everything happens for a reason. We don't always know but God does.

The strange thing is I had a strong feeling the other day I would be involved in a car accident. I brushed it off thinking maybe it was the commericals on tv I was seeing, reading the news about accidents that have happened in our area or just that I am scared to death of accidents. Your life can change in a split second. When I had the thought it sent chills through my body; but I brushed it off. I felt it was my mind playing tricks on me. It was something I had saw or read which was the reason I was feeling these "preminitions".

Was it God talking to me? What was he saying? Was I to go through this ordeal for some reason? Was I to take something out of it? Was I to lose something?

I was raised Baptist. I chose to be baptised when I was 13 right around the same time my parents were going through a divorce. My mom during this ordeal was trying to find the "right Church"...we tried several. Through the years I went less and less but always knew God was with me.

I met my husband who was Catholic but not the "practicing Catholic" I guess you could say. I wanted to learn about new faiths. I didn't quite know the difference between all the religions. What I did know was of a higher being; God. Someone who created this beautiful place we live in. Someone who created us; perfectly developed individuals all unique in our own way.

I know he has a path for me, my husband and my kids...not to mention the people he brings into our lives.

I know he will guide me and all I can do is let him take the wheel...but yet I am scared...why?

This accident has truly allowed me to "be in the moment". Appreciate what is and not what I want. Everything else will fall into place.